Its been a bit of a blur recently.
Work simply doesn't have of the effects and pressures it used to have now that I'm leaving. (p.s. Did I mention that I'm leaving? like FINALLY!)
Anyway life's been a constant state of flux again. Got attached with k again, broke up again, single again.
Well coming outta it, I've got no more regrets.
Other than that, I realised I've been clubbing a little too often recently. Like almost every Friday for the past months. I know its not alot for all you party animals out there but for lazy old me its quite alot.
Not that I'm complaining, jus that its getting a bit ex. I'll resolve to club less, smoke less after my KL trip (3-4 Oct).
Also on the list of to do would be losing my 1 pack, and getting a 6 pack. I figure by December 31st that should be probable. Considering that I won't be working from 16 Oct onwards (Can't hardly wait). Not that I'll be starting to exercise like crazy from 16 oct onwards since 20-31st Oct will be in Indo but I guess 2 months of no work and all exercise and mugging and chilling should make it possible to lose enough weight. Besides, when you're poor assed and jobless the least u can do is EAT LESS right? hahaha
Anyway lets update on my thoughts and rationalization of why I'm quitting.
1. Some things within the job .. I just don't like. Lets not elaborate.
2. The nature of the job is client servicing. The thing I don't like is client servicing. Everything else, I like it, jus the actual scope sucks. hahhaa. Ironic thing is that I've spent most of my time there doing everything but not so much client servicing but if thats the actual nature of the job, then I'd rather move away.
3. I've thought about it long and hard and frankly its not something that interests me hence while I'm still young and without commitments that'll tie me down, I should move on.
4. Experience. Job experience aside, it would be interesting to actually have the experience of being jobless. Things that come too easy are seldom appreciated. I rather be in this situation now while it won't impact pple around me much than to be jobless @40.
5. Self fulfillment - I realised that my personal life and progression has gone totally down the drain since I've worked here. Hours are so long I'm never having enough time to do anything with my own life. Hardly any friend dinners. Too tired to study at night and on weekends all I wanna do is rest relax and party. Which is nothing wrong since I'm allowed to rest relax and party. Everyone has a min requirement for R&R I know whats mine. Basically I noted that rather than moving onwards in life I've actually stepped backwards. I've become super unhealthy, my social circle is shrinking (ok this is debatable but still). and I'm still the same person on paper as I was 3 yrs ago when I started (other than 3 yrs job experience). But no, its not what I want anymore.
6. Forward thinking - I haven't really thought about what I want in life and basically took the job cos it was the first thing that came along after Uni. Wasn't a bad choice but without thinking properly and planning ahead, whats the point in continuing? I might as well sit down and ponder on what steps lie ahead.
7. Finding back myself. - Its been an enlightening 3 yrs. Changed so much, some good, some bad, some silly. I've gotten used to being spendthrift and a 30bux meal is considered normal to me now. What the hell happened? I'm not staying in a western country. This is Singapore and 5 bux is suffice for a decent meal with drinks! I don't wanna become another restaurant patronizing snob that looks down on the local hawker centres. Nopes. I came back to SG for a reason. Cos of the local lifestyle and I plan to stick to it. Plus, the term "value for money" will probably apply more when I actually don't know where my next pay check is coming from.
8. Change - A necessary part of life. To force myself to change, without a job, I'll HAVE to do something bout it. Might be good or vice versa but its a toss I'm willing to take on.
hmm verbal diarrhea enough. I'll update waterver else later.
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